Fitness Blogger Confessions

You know I like to keep it real. I'm always going to try to be honest with my readers. I think sometimes fitness blogging gives the writer a kind of aura of healthiness that people think must extend to everything. So to bust that wide open, I have some revelations to share... 

My kit is rarely clean. Seriously, what is the point. By the time people encounter me in it, I will once again be working out. Don't get me wrong, I do wash my kit. But every time is not worth the effort. On Friday night I washed kit after one little weights class, I walked out of spin on Saturday using that same kit, reeking. There was sweat ingrained in every thread of that shirt. What was the point in that wash?!

Most of my workouts aren't tough. If its always 'go hard or go home', I might just go home. There's no 'fitspiration' quote I hate more than that phrase. Firstly, exercise should be fun. It is perfectly okay if your workout did not feel hard and instead felt relaxing, distracting, energising, or any other adjective in the world. Fitness can be your downtime. Fitness should not always have to be the hardest thing in the world. When I look at my workout diary, I see a huge range in a week of very tough exercise, and very easy exercise.

Thats a realistic shot and stride for you- heel striking, bright red, sweaty AS.

My stride and pace improve when other people are nearby. Doubly so if that person is attractive. I was sloughing along like a man jogging to the gallows then suddenly I am the offspring of Miranda Kerr and a Thomson's Gazelle. I am grace. I am Miss United St-- wait, where was I? Anyway, humans are very bad with social embarrassment. Its shallow but we all do it. I'm not even doing it deliberately, but I am doing it.

How is office drawer chocolate still here? Oh yeah, no one likes it that much.

I prefer milk chocolate*. Yeah... I mean I like dark chocolate. But it is not the same. Does not have the same creamy smoothness. I know its so much better for you, but Green and Blacks dark chocolate just can't touch their milk chocolate. Or their milk chocolate with butterscotch. Or the one with marbled white chocolate. Its the bad bits that make it taste so good. More importantly, just because I like fitness and write about it does not mean I only eat chocolate as a once a month treat, or that I only ever eat dark chocolate. Life is too short. I'm not telling myself its a health food, but I wont avoid it either. I also eat pizza. Pizza is super good. 

Taking beautiful photos of fitness is difficult as sin. Either you get crappy photos- taken on a phone, blurred by my sweat on the lens (because I keep my phone down my bra), bright red face, harsh strip lighting- OR you get staged ones- perky and made up in a sports bra. Those are your choices. I do not understand the people getting beautiful shots of muscle and poise... whats the secret?!

I can't do more than 5 press ups. Seriously. I find them SO hard, and I always switch to modifiers. They've only become more difficult since my PhD started giving me repetitive wrist strain injuries. I always fail on the up-push, and they are difficult to hold form-wise now my wrists hurt. Again, if you have any tips I would love to hear them.

1/5 only.

Most of my food is not instagrammable. The dishes have a chip in them. It tastes amazing but it looks questionable. Its not colourful. The surrounds are a tip. I'm eating it out of a huge mug because we are out of bowls. Most of my daily life does not look pretty even with a filter. Moreover, if I'm starving I cannot take the time out to make them photogenic. Most of my instagram food shots are therefore of restaurant food...

I still let body image drama effect my mood. I wrote about Body Image some time ago, and its a very popular post. The reality is that its still a battle. I still have days where I can't stop thinking about how I look from a certain angle and I let it ruin my day. Other days I think, 'Hey, I look pretty good'. We are all a work in progress, me more than anyone.

My sleep hygiene sucks. I sleep sporadically for anything between 6 and 8 hours a night. I check my phone in bed, even if I wake up randomly in the middle of the night. We watch TV in bed. When the laptop goes off, the radio goes on. I don't remember it at all but I wake up a lot asking my significant other who he is talking to (its the radio).  I am completely aware of how bad this is for you. We even tried perfecting our sleep hygiene. It really worked- much better sleep, much more rested. Then we became honest with ourselves and admitted we prefer Netflix to good sleep. 

I never count calories. I know when I am eating badly. My meals are all healthy- its my snacking that lets me down. I'm lucky that I have the experience to know what a good days food looks like, and what is reasonable nutritionally. Therefore I am not kidding myself in any way, even if I am not counting calories, I know what I'm eating. I found calorie counting too obsessive- thinking that I could do a few more squats if I ended up 10kcals over for the day. Natural daily calorie variation will even out, and its the snacks I have to watch, not the calories.

Will not make me any faster. Highly cute though.

I really like cute fitness gear. I know that's desperately shallow. I was reading the book Running Free, which speaks a lot about the commercialisation of running. Whilst I completely agree you do not need all the gear to enjoy running, that getting back into nature is amazing, that you can run into the hills with very little money or gadgetry... I had to eventually admit it to myself. I felt guilty, because I love snazzy running gear. For no more good reason than its comfortable, and I like how it looks. I don't feel I need it, I just want it. I guess a related one is that I wear fitness gear all the time when I'm not working out (I do make sure it is washed, though). 

So there you have it, I am not the healthiest person on earth. I'm just some chick who likes exercise. 

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Okay, come on, what are your fitness confessions?

* Whilst writing this, I received an email from Graze called, "Mmmm chocolate". The universe knows it. Graze knows it. 

13 Comments:

  1. My kit is gross. I also am a great one for staying in my kit for like, the rest of the day if I can get away with it. I rarely wash my hair. I blow-dry sweat out of it and just shove it in a high bun. I like to wear (generally clean..) fitness stuff during the day just because it's easier and more comfy than jeans. I sometimes pretend the reason I am wearing it to brunch is because I'm going to yoga (LOL the people who actually know me know this is a lie because I hate yoga - really I have just been running and used a lot of spray deodorant) - this is making me sound SO disgusting!
    I also eat a lot of pizza. Like quite often once a week pizza. And not a 'cauliflower crust with loads of vegetables', more a deep pan pepperoni with extra cheese. In particular, if the night before involved tequila and jaegerbombs.
    Errr also I MASSIVELY check guys out in the gym and then am a big hypocrite about them doing the same. And you know how people say peanut butter is good for you? I think there is a limit as to how much is ACTUALLY acceptable to eat with a spoon. And it's less than what I do.

    (This list could go on and on actually)
    Katie x

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    1. This comment made me laugh SO much.

      I am very guilty of a dry shampoo bun. I also sometimes realise my hair looks just TOO bad for work and then I wash it in the toilet sinks using their hand soap- ashamed!

      I have only stopped doing what I used to refer to as the 'gym hot guy fly by' because all the people in my gym now seem SO young to me (its a uni gym).

      I imagine the amount of PB one is allowed to eat with a spoon is higher than the amount of nutella one is allowed to eat by the spoonful... oops! x

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  2. OMG, you are a human! :)

    I wash my kit, I have to say that. Although - correction - my mother who lives with us does all the laundry so I can't really say that I myself wash my kit :|

    I don't like milk chocolate.

    I hate chia seed pudding of any sort. Grosses thing ever.

    I don't have TV or radio in my bedroom but I always have my phone in my hand when I watch TV at night and I think it's so rude towards my husband and I must stop.

    I feed my kids fish fingers and pasta with ketchup.

    They love it :)

    I am just now finally able to do loads of double unders in one go without 'leakage' :| (childbirth takes a long freaking time to recover from!)

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    1. Yes! I am a semi gross, imperfect human being :-)

      Chia seeds look and feel like fish eggs. This is not a coincidence. They have a nasty texture.

      I always think my phone obsession is rude to my SO too- he deserves a little more love!

      I bet your kids bloody love it ;-) I hope they also get spaghetti hoops- they were the best.

      Sorry to hear that but glad youve hit recovery! x

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  3. I love this! I also don't wash my kit as often as I should, I don't have time to be doing a million washes a week, so I do wear stuff more than once. I also love plodding, running at chatting/singing pace is my favourite thing, sure I love tempo and hill sessions too, but just taking it easy is the best. I'm also terrible with sleep routine, I am often on my laptop in the evenings, and check my phone before bed and when I get up in the morning- I am completely addicted to it- and I do actually need to change that! I am also completely addicted to nut butter, and put it on everything. My worst habit by far though is that I never stretch before or after runs, like anything at all, I often do stretch/strength/yoga later in the day, but I never do anything pre or post run- so bad.

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    1. I like runs either increddddddibly easy or incredibly hard- either I want to be singing away to myself and hardly running or hacking up a lung. So glad other people sing!

      I completely agree- I need to give myself a phone embargo when I'm with people, including at home. My sleep hygiene last night was terrible- 4 hours sleep, falling asleep w laptop on, and checking my mobile at 6am upon waking.

      I warm up before speedwork, but am super poor at post-run stretching too! x

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  4. Meh, kit washing is for losers. Or people who can afford the electric / wait for it to dry before the next workout.

    I'm literally glued to my phone everywhere I go, including in bed. I'm in bed now, typing this, having missed my morning run to catch up on blogs.

    I have an unhealthy obsession with peanut butter, and also go through daily body shame thoughts like you do.

    I also can't be bothered to do anything sometimes and would much rather eat chocolate and pizza. And cake. And roast potatoes. And takeaways.

    I sometimes go to bed sweaty from a run as I know in the morning I'm at it again and there'll be a shower at the gym (we only have a bath at home and it's a right faff sometimes) YUM.

    Re press ups - my wrists hate me when I do these too - do them on your fists :)

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    1. I actually hide my phone from myself to stop me looking at it. The addiction is real!

      I do the shower thing too! Especially with my hair- it'd literally go sweaty>wet>sweaty without ever being clean and dry so whats the point?!

      Yeah I've tried the fists but it also doesn't work for me :( Oh well! modifiers all over town!

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  5. Here we go..
    I’m not crazy obsessive about washing kit but if I leave a top out for the next day my fella has been known to complain that it stinks…Ooops.
    I love milk chocolate, I love peanut butter excessively, I eat sugar and I eat something sweet every single day. I also don’t count calories but from previous calorie counting experience I can confirm that I always eat 2000+ calories a day, I NEED food.
    Most of my Insta food photos are frustrating because I’m so frikking Starving Marvin
    I can only plank for 20second then I collapse.
    I really struggled to get ‘into’ yoga so I stopped and I’ll try again in the future.
    I always speed up when I see other runners, I am envious of those who can run 7mm with no bother, sometimes I only run a mile to ‘wake myself up’ and I’m a complete pussy when it comes to running in the rain.
    I do ‘ab work’ at home so I can roll about on the floor and play with my cat whilst attempting a couple of crunches. Erm..I wonder why I don’t have abs yet? (see above, chocolate, nut butter, half-hearted crunches and irregular lifting).
    I was once caught trying to take a fitness ‘selfie’ at the gym and felt so embarrassed I avoided eye contact with that lady for ages…
    I really need to stop this here, or I’ll be going on for hours!
    You rock and I LOVE this post so much :) x

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    1. I struggle with yoga so much- deeply jealous of those who feel the stretch and the inner peace ... Where is mine?!

      Haha I love your cat ab sessions!

      Oh my god; taking fitness shots in the park is SO embarrassing. I hate taking blog pics of myself, so I feel ya! X

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  6. This is great! I'm not even a proper fitness blogger but can still relate... Except the milk chocolate thing. I Love dark choc! Oh and sleep, I really like that too only my 11 month old isn't such a fan!

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    1. Argh! Babies are the worst for sleep hygiene ;-) I hope it gets better and you get more sleep!

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  7. Despite these things, you are doin great!

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